I suffer from a few auto-immune illnesses. I have a congenitally acquired, debilitating and painful case of Varicose Veins in my leg and Ulcerative Colitus in the intestine. I was born with Varicose veins on one of my legs, it’s a condition in which the veins of the affected area become enlarged, dilated, and overfilled with blood. Varicose veins are painful and thus fatigue and exhaustion are a major part of my life.
My childhood was arduous and aching as I slept in pain and woke up in pain and suffered that pain all day, every day. Till this day it’s the same story but now, how I manage my illnesses and my pain and my thought process has taken a 360 degree turn. Just to give you a brief peek into my past — I couldn’t play like normal children of my age could and even if I forced myself to, I was rejected by my classmates. I was picked on a lot, made fun of and was subjected to bullying regularly. These things of course coloured my impression of me and as a result I grew up with intense feelings of self-hate and shame, slipping into depression often.
When I became an adult, I learned to mask those feelings well but deep within I still felt deep emotional and physical pain. Despite all my physical and emotional challenges, I was continuing to do regular jobs like every other adult, I worked more than a decade in demanding corporate positions in MNC’s, in Health Journalism and Public Relations. But due to the difficult and exhausting nature of these jobs, my health conditions kept getting worse. After many years of both emotionally and physically suffering, my body caved in and I became bed-ridden. I became confined to my bed for years. It was a result of a combination of work-stress, feelings of inadequacy and complete lack of self-care . I hit rock bottom and as J.K. Rolling says “Rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life”.
About 12 years ago, I decided to take radical responsibility of my life and happiness in my own hands! I understood that the past doesn’t equal future unless we decide to live there. Past is a place of reference not a place of residence. So I decide to rewrite my story. I began with small mobility exercises and slowly started gaining some body strength. Over time I managed to build the strength and endurance . All of this wouldn’t have happened if i hadn’t changed my internal narrative of self-loathing to self-loving, self-caring practice. From ailing and totally being incapacitated to becoming a dancing spirit was the most wonderful journey I’ve ever been on. It taught me so much about physical health, the mind-body connection and re-evaluating old, limiting patterns and belief systems that were holding me back. I was accessing countless resources of spiritual and personal development books, trainings, coaches, counsellors and healers. I studied and got many certifications to become a certified Life Coach. And that’s when I started travelling on this magical journey of self-exploration and self-healing, which taught me, how to connect to me, how to be present to all of me. It taught me how to listen to my brilliant and supportive inner guiding system. I became aware of how a lot of my emotional pain was also caused by lack of self-expression of my needs. What I learned completely transformed my life, I understood that – ‘my needs are vital’ and I learned to prioritise them. Today I am a walking testimonial of what I’ve learned, implemented and transitioned and now I’m sharing it with the world. I’ve always believed and shared that the four cornerstones of success are re-evaluating the limiting beliefs, mindset re-wiring, skills development and above all radical self-love and self-compassion.
During the course of this time, some massive healing, quantum and leaping shifts, huge expansions, inner growth and connections happened for me. And that’s when I realised without a trace of doubt that this is my soul-calling! In my heart there was a distinct knowing that this is it, this IS what I was called to do in this lifetime. So I’ve been sharing the fruits and gifts of this spiritual awakening ever since to similar seekers.
If you are going through the unbearable pain of failed relationships, unrequited love or dealing with the immobilising pain of living with an auto-immune/ invisible/ visible chronic illnesses or any other hardships or stresses of life you are braving through, I completely understand your rather confusing journey because I’ve been through it all myself. Pain is my constant companion even till today and yet it has been my greatest teacher in disguise. I continue to learn from it each day. It taught me acceptance, taught me to ask for help, seek support and care when I required it, it taught me humility, to become vulnerable, own and speak my truth and allow others to know my life so that they see the journey of my transformation and can learn, grow from it. My journey has resonated with many mind-body wellness enthusiasts, spiritual seekers, honest, deep-connection lovers and seekers of meaning and fulfilment in life. I’ve spent last 10 years following my soul-calling with unwavering faith, enabling and empowering people through my coaching. I am here to not only urge you to let go of the past versions of yourself but also here to support and guide you to be truly blissful by moving into Radical Self-Acceptance and Self-Love, Every. Single. Day.
Thanks to the internet, I can offer you some powerful coaching tools to enhance your life or to repair your marriage or relationship from the privacy of your own home. No need to waste time in driving to and fro from a therapist’s office.
So my dear friend, instead of stacking up all that pain and projecting it someway into this world, I’d like to gently nudge you to seek the support you need right now. You are a beautiful, gifted soul worth being adored, you are precious and needed in every way to be a part of this beautiful world. You deserve to enjoy this gift of life and tap into the joy in your soul. No matter how sick or broken you feel right now, I can assure you that your soul is never sick or broken! I am here to guide you, to help you navigate through a journey of hardships that often seems to be full with hopelessness, negativity and confusions. Come let’s join hands together to learn to love yourself to your very core, with every fibre of your being because that’s the way your dreams become your reality and you start living a blissful life! If you decide to work with me to get to the next level then get ready for some deep, personal and uplifting conversations, experience massive healing, deep perspective shifts through some cutting-edge coaching tools.
